Hi everyone,Â
With the 'evaporation' of the other message board, I have once again revived my access to this community in the hope that I can find a way to safely realize my need to be an amputee (DAK/RBE). I'm 47 years old, BID has been with me for at least 40 years, quietly whispering in my ear. Instead of trying to erase the thought, I am confident that erasing the limbs would give me fulfillment. I've dreamed about it for so long now. I yearn for the life that remains sorely out of reach. Although it is hard to quantify the effect that BID has on an individual, I can confidently say from anecdotal evidence that the release of stress associated with acceptance is highly preferential to hiding it from yourself. I have come so far in life that with the right group of 'safe' people around me I can talk about my BID. I do not associate BID with shame any more. I do associate it with stress, longing, and in many cases loneliness. Every day that I am not an amputee is a day I live with regrets.
Your thoughts are welcome.
- 3x-searching
It's just wasted lifetime. You lose the energy needed for normal daily tasks, which you then have to force just to survive. The 'cured' don't have this problem; they are bursting with energy. But not all of it that glitters is gold—sometimes those are just snapshots, like only during phantom pain. If there is ever a chance to do so.
Yes, BID is hard to live with. The thing is, the worst part of suffering from BID is not so much that one would be "disabled" if one achieves their need, but the problem is that it is just so hard to get what one needs safely. One needs what they need.
